I am frustrated. I knew this would happen, when I first took the extra weight off back in 2008 I became frustrated, but prepared myself for the weight loss to come slowly. I had hoped against all that I knew that this time would be different. Thinking that if I kept the sweets to a minimum, exercised and hello I'm breastfeeding, the weight would come off FASTER. Notsomuch. I'm annoyed that I can't seem to get in exercise 5 days a week. I'm annoyed that I have to wear my fat jeans, the jeans that although they are comfortable, they look bad on me.
When I first set out to lose the weight that I had tried to lose for about 7 years, I made myself a promise that when I had lost 20 lbs (my goal was to lose 30lbs) I'd buy myself some new jeans. I couldn't quite take wearing my old ones after I had hit 15 lbs so I gave in and bought a new pair. They are both Lucky Jeans, one is a women's cut and the other (the newer) a men's. BOTH say the same size waist, but fit differently. I'm probably 5-7 lbs away from getting those reward jeans locked up. Unfortunately no ponytail holder exists that will pull those bad boys closed so that I can get out of the baggy fat jeans.
What is even more frustrating is that I weighed myself (a couple of times) and I had gotten to 177 1/2. I was SO EXCITED! I thought there would be no way that I could not get to my first OB appt weight by Thanksgiving or the first week of December. Then I weigh myself the last two days and it says 178 .8. I try to tell myself that my breasts have been more full of milk those days, adding to the higher number, but is that true? I don't know. I know I should focus on how my body looks, how my body feels and not the Number On the Scale. But I cannot help it! I want the Number On the Scale that I long for!!! Okay, 2 more days this week that I'll be able to get workouts at the gym. Fingers crossed.
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